As all people do I have things about me, I want to change.
Some of them are physical features. My main issue happens to be weight. I have
battled my weight all my life, at one time weighing whopping 501 pounds, and
today I stand at 280 pounds. I tell you this so you get the full effect of my
weight issue. I tend to go from one extreme to the next or find things that
will aid in my weight loss. Until recently I never really understood the real
reason to lose weight meaning it was always for him or her or myself. I came
across the scripture in the Bible that says all we do we should do to the glory
of God. The Holy Spirit stopped me dead in my tracks, and I realized through
HIM and FOR Him was the key. I was losing weight for all the wrong reasons. At
that moment, I decided my weight loss was to glorify God and be an act of
worship rather than something I was doing for myself or for others. My body is
the temple of the Spirit of Jesus Christ. Therefore, I should glorify Him in it
and in all I do.
Well, while all that "sounds" nice, putting it into effect
was a whole other issue. I found the way, now I had to find the strength and
will, to get me there. I continued reading and the Holy Spirit brought back to
me that we can do nothing apart from Him. He is the vine, we are the branches.
This was it. I would be able to do it through Him. Thus my journey "truly"
began.
While this journey "sounds" easy it's the hardest thing I
have ever done in my life. But today was another eye opener as I got on the
scale and was sadly disappointed. I decided I would give up and just eat
anything I wanted as food is a source I use to cover up the pain and hurt from
others and myself. Somehow deep inside I had the Holy Spirit telling me not to
give up. So I got up and I got ready for a jog.This was going to be the hardest longest jog ever I thought WHY oh WHY
am I doing this when I feel like I am not going to get anywhere. Still I
pressed forward going through just the motions. I walked into my kitchen to get
a bottle of water, I went outside and stretched. Then I picked my cell phone up
off the chair to look at the time as I always do before I begin to jog only to
find my cell phone stuck on a web site from RBC ministries. While I TRIED to
pay it no attention as I was ready to jog it wouldn't let me press any buttons
to go back to the main screen. So I read the page. To my shock it was a
devotional about a quarterback who wanted to give up because he got hurt and
was forced to watch the game from the side lines. He wanted badly to play and
couldn't. At that moment I knew it was God showing me that not only can I only
do all things through Him but I am ABLE to do all things through Him and He
cared so much that He arranged for me to read this devotional at that time.
We may fight and struggle with issues, and many times we
spend more time complaining or doubting or making excuses when we have so much
to be grateful for. When we are battling, we need to be aware of and live in
the Word and come to a place in our walk with the Lord, where we realize His
Word is true and the battle is not ours and apart from Him, we can do nothing.
Lastly, we can watch from the side lines, or we can get in the game. God won't
force us but when we decide to make our dreams a reality by not dreaming and
start doing, we can do ALL things through and in Christ, who strengthens us as
He has promised; to never leave us or forsake us and the battle is His, but we
must let Him have it. In the end, God doesn't need us to believe or have faith
in order for Him to work in our lives, but we can't receive it until we believe
it. In closing, after I read the devotional I was able to push the button and
go to the time on my cell phone. I then smiled big, said a prayer and went
jogging with the Lord.